its terribly hurt.
i try to control that feelings.
crying is not a good way.
maybe no one understands me.
i hate my life becos its so miserable.
its so complicated.
i tought he's not like that.
maybe i could be wrong.
i know my friends hate him.
and for what he had done.
im disappointed on his words.
he's making a foool of me.
sometimes i think i should give up.
people hates me for no reasons.
and i feel im so useless to live.
i didnt know im tooo bad on peoples eyes.
although the feelings is true,it will not come true.
sometimes i look at nisa,minah and seri.
they have the look.
and also have a admire.
not like me.
im tooo dirty for people to like.
i think its better to stay at home.
and dunt go and talk to people.
its difficult to forget about what had happens.
but what happens,life must continue.
its not easy to believe in people.
i think i should give all this to god.
so that he can decide.

i love that gorgeous guy.
the first feeling that makes me go crazy.
the feeling that makes my life so miserable and complicated.
and lastly,i love you.