It's killing me. No, i don't need help. I just need some space to breathe. I'm tired of all the smile and laugh and joke i had in school. It didn't really work out well. I'm tired of faking it all. It seems like nothing is going to be right. Can you spare some thought of me? Is it so hard? Somebody told me something i didnt wanna know but well, she doesn't know anything so she wasn't in fault. But still, my heart sinked deeply when i heard everything. So i'm just living in a world full of question marks now. I don't know what's happening between you and her. But i hope you guys are just plain friends. I wonder, if you guys are friends, what's with all the messaging frequently? I don't wanna hate anybody right now cos it's not right. But something's telling me to. That's hard, you see.

& I hate when my eyes meets yours because at that point of time, it reminds me of everything. yes, indeed everything. Pain, sorrow, happiness, joy we had in the past. Pfft, and that's why i wish i hadn't gone to school. Because i know, its just gonna hurt me more.

I'm not your sunshine girl, i'm not your 'one in a million' girl anymore