Don't you think it's really awkward when you have an eye contact with that someone for a few freaking times in just one day? Err, i've always felt that way and i can't help it. It's like that 'awkward moment' will be popping out of a sudden, with no good reason. So annoying because i sure as hell do not want to remember a thing but some things just made me.

Sigh, how i wish i wasn't dumb enough last time. How i wish we could still be friends. How i wish we could talked like friends and act like nothing has ever happened between us. How i wish you could forgive me and start talking to me. How i wish you'll talk to me like how you talk to my friends. How i wish i could love you with all my heart without you knowing. How i wish i could turn back time and erase all the bad deeds i've done to you. How i wish i wasn't a bitch(like what you called me). How i wish i could proved to you that i've changed. How i wish i could make you feel the same way as i do. How i wish i was pretty enough. How i wish i could go to school without faking a smile and pretending that everything's okay when in actual fact, it has never been like that. How i wish i could make you laugh at my jokes and smile at my silly moments. How i wish i could hang out with you and just talk about everything under the sun/moon. How i wish i was the 'girl' you fell in love with in the past. How i wish what i dreamt that day is going to be true one day. Ya Allah, please grant my wishes. I'm human, humans can't simply get away from mistakes. Forgive me, ya Allah.

Hmm, and lastly.. i hope you'll hop into my blog and read this. Err and maybe feel a pinch. Well, I just wanna let you know that you never really left my mind. You're there, and you'll always be there. Whether you like it or not, i can't get you out of my mind. I just hope that i'm strong enough to get through everyday, even if takes a million years to pretend, i'll do it. Yeah, i'm very good at pretending and lying too. Hmm, just so you know that's me.

I miss you, so much that it hurts.