I've had enough actually. I've been all silent towards my feelings because i chose to put it aside whenever i'm with my friends but when i'm alone, especially at night.. the problems came one after another haunting me down. I want to be happy again. I dont want to pretend, pretend to be happy. For once, i want to feel lively. Like when i see you around, i'll just smile for no reason. Not like now. Like i have to smile, laugh and pretend that it's okay and i've forgotten all my problems. I dont want that.

Allah, why must it be me? & why must it be him? It's going to be 3 years and nothing's change on my side.