3 MORE DAYS JUST 3 MORE DAYS AND IT'S ALREADY EID!!! As much as i want Eid to appear, part of me still wants Ramadhan to stay. This year's Ramadhan passed by very quickly and i know i didn't do much and i feel shitty about it :/ So occupied with school projects & i can't do anything about it.

Life. That's about it. I've been doing some deep thinking these few days, i just can't help it. I usually do when i'm alone. The thoughts just appear and couldn't be washed away. I wish i could somehow but no. Life isn't supposed to be this hard ya know. I'm just 18 for goodness sake and i have to think so much about life. From family to school to you, & the cycle repeats.

I've been waiting for A MONTH and if that doesn't make a big deal to you then fine. I don't care and i won't anymore, my friend. Now it's really up to you. I'm already leaving. Yes i'm doing it because i see no point holding on to something or someone who doesn't give two shits about you. So why bother right? Go enjoy life. I knew from the start i was only your 'spare tyre' or whatever. I was only important when you needed something and when you don't, you treat me like i don't matter or exist. I HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR SHITS, my friend. I really do. Don't come back, just stay away from me because i won't be there for you. Go find someone who can tolerate your shits. I bet you can't find one cos all this while, i've been the only one who's been tolerating the shits you created. Not that i hate you or what, sometimes you've gotta learn to let go of things that make you sad, things that hurt. 

It's so going to be different now but it's okay. I survived a month w/o even a 'hello, how have you been' text from you so i'm gonna make it for the rest of the months in the future. 

I'm fine, yeah.