Hi, some feelings' bothering me lately..... I NEED TO LET IT OUT

I'm a little scared because once I get close to whoever, they'll have so much influence on me. They could play me over and over again and not a bone in my body would want to push them away. I will want them closer everyday and all they do is keep their distance. I want them to want me. I would give up my everything to just be their nothing.

I'm just terrified, anyone has ever feel that way before? no? hais