Ohh, life is now so damn fucking miserable.
im confused and i dunt know what to do anymore.
i feel like giving up now and then but what should
i do to make our friendship last forever?
now, our friendship is hanging over and anytime,
we can break off. i dunt want that to happen.
but why must this happen to me huh?
what wrong i do till god do that to towards me?
im confused, confused, confused and confused!
sometimes, i remember what are the promises
that nisa promise me. i feel like crying nowadays.
nisa, minah and seri is a good friend i ever had.
i dunt want to lose any of them right now.
shall i be a loner and dunt make friends at all??
many questions is on my mind now and then.
what should i do? what should i do? im confused.
ARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
but if you hate me, just hate me becos what i
tell nisa is to let her know that you are just talking
non stop bout her. and if you think, im a bad friend,
carry on becos i do this for my own friend sake.
nisa really going through alot and you can still use
harsh words on her just because youre fed up at her.
but to tell you the truth, i know nisa more than you do
and i know what kind of person nisa is and if you
think nisa is just a person who dunt care about
friendship, then you are in the wrong. since primary
school, i and her are bestfriends and sometimes,
we have little fights and yeah, nisa promise me she
would be with me all the time in secondary life but when
you and seri is there, she tend to ignore me all the way.
and sometimes, i scared of loosing a friend like her.
when im hurt, nobody cares about me. you? not at all.
you like nisa more than me and seri and thats why you
keep on respecting her when you guys break off the
friendship. just imagine, when i and you break off the
friendship? you will tend not to respect me and even
never smile at me also. im not saying you are bad or
some stuffs, but what i say is the fact that what you are
and i dunt lie if im very serious. people keep asking me
and nisa, what happened but we just keep quite bcos we
dunt want to make you ashamed. see, i still respect you.
i know, im not blaming anyone here but what now is,
i need to tell out my feelings that i have keep inside
my heart since LAST YEAR. i keep it and did not say
anything because i dunt want to hurt you but my heart,
its really hurting inside but i kept quite and be calm.
sometimes, im irritating and sucks big time and that is
the best word to describe me, aint it? i just take it anymore.
if im quite and its doesnt mean you can betrayed me like
that. you always put the blame on me and nobody else.
what wrong i do? i know you hate me but you dunt dare
to say because it will hurts me alot right? haiss, what i
should do now is to be with nisa back like our primary
school time. i feel my world is more peaceful than ever.