Sometimes i wonder, if Allah gives you a lot of chances, why can't we give chances to those who needed it badly? This sometimes surprised me and i dont even know how to put it into words. I feel numb all the time but at one point of time, i can be laughing my ass off with my friends. How weird can that be? Like you're both hurt and happy at the same time. Or maybe i'm used to the pain already? Maybe yes, maybe no, i dont know.

Now it feels like as if the whole world just pushed you down and you cant get up and stand for your own rights. I dont like the way i've fallen in love with you. It gives me heartache all the times and this brings me no good. Can someone take me somewhere peaceful where i can possibly travel around the world and forget about my pain? Please..

Allah hu Akbar!